I am of course grateful that I am not smoking and it has been a while since I have smoked. I have quite a cold but I was thinking that maybe my lungs are still clearing themselves out a bit. I was at my aunt's and uncle's yesterday for Thanksgiving and it was nice. I took a walk with a few of my cousins and one of them lit up a cigar. I briefly thought about asking for one, but realized that could be the slippery slope that leads me back.
In my past attempts to quit I smoked cigars and the usage and or the number of cigars I smoked increased until finally I did go back to cigarettes. This time before stopped I smoked up all the cigars and made sure that there was no smoking materials in my house. So far so good. The other thing that I have done differently is of course this blog, which really helps. Peace!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Great American Smokeout
In honor of the "great american smokeout" being today I though that I should post a link to the site.
Great American Smokeout
Great American Smokeout
Friday, November 6, 2009
4 months
Feeling a little antsy this evening but that is okay. If not antsy the term would be energetic. I can say for sure some of it can be attributed to my increased energy as a result of not smoking. When smoking I was always aware how smoking zaps one's energy, especially as I got older.
As I do some reflecting I was once again able to see people smoking at my place of employment and how they were trying to get the smoke into their system. I guess that its kind of like one might take in food. Of course that is where the comparison stops with cigarettes being unhealthy. I could see the sense of urgency as one might eat with limited time, kind of a gulping.
As I was driving home from work I was thinking of a couple of my cousins that are social smokers, if there is such as thing. They can take it or leave it and would occasionally get a cigarette, from me when I was smoking and have one with me. They rarely had there own pack and were not at all concerned if they had cigarettes in their possession. Of course as I thought more I do realize as I have said many times before I don't smoke like that and will not try to kid myself. "One is to many and a thousand is not enough". Keeping that in mind I stopped daydreaming about the cigarette smoking and popped a lozenge in my mouth.
As always the simple act of blogging helps keep my commitment to this non-smoking thing. Peace!
As I do some reflecting I was once again able to see people smoking at my place of employment and how they were trying to get the smoke into their system. I guess that its kind of like one might take in food. Of course that is where the comparison stops with cigarettes being unhealthy. I could see the sense of urgency as one might eat with limited time, kind of a gulping.
As I was driving home from work I was thinking of a couple of my cousins that are social smokers, if there is such as thing. They can take it or leave it and would occasionally get a cigarette, from me when I was smoking and have one with me. They rarely had there own pack and were not at all concerned if they had cigarettes in their possession. Of course as I thought more I do realize as I have said many times before I don't smoke like that and will not try to kid myself. "One is to many and a thousand is not enough". Keeping that in mind I stopped daydreaming about the cigarette smoking and popped a lozenge in my mouth.
As always the simple act of blogging helps keep my commitment to this non-smoking thing. Peace!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Halloween
I have not posted in a while and needed to post. It seems that if I ever do go back to smoking that it would be on the weekend when I have free time. I am doing okay however and as you may see by the meter it has been a few 24 hours so to speak. I am still doing the lozenges as a crutch. I am not sure if I need to. Possibly I should try to transition to gum. It would be healthier and cheaper.
The one observation that I have for this writing, as probably most people know is a simple one. The world is filled with non-smokers. The other observation that as the weather gets colder as long as stick with the non smoking I won't be subject to having to go out in the cold weather. I observed the downside as people gather in the smoker’s area at work. It was cold the other day. The smokers seem to be cold and of course they’re in a hurry to suck as much smoke as they can in a small amount of time. It definitely looks kind of foolish. Let me also say that just a short time ago I could be one of those folks and could be in the future. But for today I won't. As I have heard many times "but for the grace, their go I".
The one observation that I have for this writing, as probably most people know is a simple one. The world is filled with non-smokers. The other observation that as the weather gets colder as long as stick with the non smoking I won't be subject to having to go out in the cold weather. I observed the downside as people gather in the smoker’s area at work. It was cold the other day. The smokers seem to be cold and of course they’re in a hurry to suck as much smoke as they can in a small amount of time. It definitely looks kind of foolish. Let me also say that just a short time ago I could be one of those folks and could be in the future. But for today I won't. As I have heard many times "but for the grace, their go I".
Saturday, October 17, 2009
My weekly post
I just wanted to post and let folks know that I am doing okay and not smoking. I actually have a bit of cold. However the cold is so much less than the usual colds I had while smoking. As I had said earlier the simple act of blogging about not smoking seems to help considerably.
As I write this I am running through my head how important it is that I don't smoke. I don't want to take for granted what this means to me. I have just had my first lozenge of the day and it is late in the day. However as I had said earlier I am supposed to be weaned off of the lozenges by now. I don't think twice about going a little bit beyond the recommended usage dates. I would think that it is simply a guide. My use of lozenges is so much less than they were in my initial days and weeks stopping. Also I would much rather smell like cappuccino and or coffee than cigarettes.
Lastly life is much simpler without smoking. No more having to run to the store and turn the fan on in the living room. It is certainly a "one day at a time" endeavor.
As I write this I am running through my head how important it is that I don't smoke. I don't want to take for granted what this means to me. I have just had my first lozenge of the day and it is late in the day. However as I had said earlier I am supposed to be weaned off of the lozenges by now. I don't think twice about going a little bit beyond the recommended usage dates. I would think that it is simply a guide. My use of lozenges is so much less than they were in my initial days and weeks stopping. Also I would much rather smell like cappuccino and or coffee than cigarettes.
Lastly life is much simpler without smoking. No more having to run to the store and turn the fan on in the living room. It is certainly a "one day at a time" endeavor.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
90 Days and or 3 months
I try not to place too much importance on time. The reason I say that is that one's mind set is what is truly going get someone to be comfortable with change. I am content that I have reached 3 months and or 90 days without cigarettes. My lungs thanks me as does my heart.
However my abdomen is getting larger, as I seem to eat more. I am sure that my increased weight is a result of my not smoking and that oral fixation that goes along with smoking. I am realizing that I don't want to put on too much weight as a result of my not smoking.
Also I am still using the lozenges that I was supposed to be off of as of this time period in my non-smoking life. I guess what I am saying is that I am not perfect. However I am "getting err done".
However my abdomen is getting larger, as I seem to eat more. I am sure that my increased weight is a result of my not smoking and that oral fixation that goes along with smoking. I am realizing that I don't want to put on too much weight as a result of my not smoking.
Also I am still using the lozenges that I was supposed to be off of as of this time period in my non-smoking life. I guess what I am saying is that I am not perfect. However I am "getting err done".
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Getting there
Slowly but surely I am start to get a few days behind that have been smoke free. I have to say that my lungs are still clearing themselves out. I would have thought by now that would be over by now. Little do I know? I can however say that my breathing is relaxed and unobstructed and that is good. I have been working during the week and not posting as much as I was initially.
I do know that the longest I have quit in my adult life is 8 months and that is the long-term goal. The short-term goal is 3 months, which is just around the corner. With winter coming I'll be doing myself a favor by not smoking. I won't have to go outside when the cold Canadian air starts blowing and my circulation will continue to improve.
My last observation for this evening is I was in traffic on my way to golf and the woman in front of me was smoking. I noticed that she did as I had before and I have seen others do. She put the cigarette out the window to burn when at the light so as to not get too much smoke in the car. The whole thing looked awkward as I imagined I had before.
I do know that the longest I have quit in my adult life is 8 months and that is the long-term goal. The short-term goal is 3 months, which is just around the corner. With winter coming I'll be doing myself a favor by not smoking. I won't have to go outside when the cold Canadian air starts blowing and my circulation will continue to improve.
My last observation for this evening is I was in traffic on my way to golf and the woman in front of me was smoking. I noticed that she did as I had before and I have seen others do. She put the cigarette out the window to burn when at the light so as to not get too much smoke in the car. The whole thing looked awkward as I imagined I had before.
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